So,
3 Years ago, someone called me fat, I did not think much of it, so I let it go.
A few weeks after that, someone else called me fat, and I thought, "Its just a comment"
A little while after that, someone else said I was fat.

So I looked in the mirror, I didnt see fat, I just saw me
After a while, I was hanging out with my friends, and I felt curious so I looked around  the table, just to see if they were right, I still didnt see it, so I let it go

A little while later, someone else told me I stood out among my friends cause I looked so heavy, so I asked a friend, and they didnt see it either.
This one morning, as I got dressed, i took a second to look at my jeans and compare them to my sisters , just cause.

There was such a difference between the two, But I still let it go because it didn't matter.
See, I wasn't a size 0, not even a size 6, I was my own size, my own body, but theres only so much self confidence can do.
Made me wonder, what exactly is the acceptance weight, not the medical healthy BMI acceptable, societal acceptance?

A little while later, more and more people told me I was big and I needed to lose weight to fit in, some said I needed the weight loss to look and I quote "Hot".

I wanted to let it go, but the more I heard it, the more it worried me.
I kept asking myself If I was really what they said.
My self confidence dropped digits
My self esteem plummeted alongside it and I withdrew myself.
I kept to myself, I hid, I wore oversized clothes so I could feel smaller than my actual size.
Then I read this article, talking about what it's like to be big, thick, curvy, vivacious, whatever word you want to say just to make yourself better.

Let's be honest, there is no such thing is the perfect weight, or body size.
As long as the doctor tells you Your ass ain't at risk for anything that is.

We've made it clear that too big is not good enough, too small is sad, somewhere in the middle is still not good enough.

I guess I should say something like, it's okay to be big or small, which is true, but, we made our bed and we have to lay in it.

We've created a world where weight and body size defines sexiness

Simplest way to deal with it is to just to accept it

If you want to be hot, be hot,